Confuzzled

It's always hard staring at the blank blog composer trying to figure out where to start with your blog. I still haven't managed to make it a habit to regularly post updates to my everyday life. I'll get the hang of it sooner or later.

The past 4 months have been very interesting. As the lease on my TL neared it's end in July, I scrambled to get it back in once piece for the auction representatives to come and pick it up. It was nearly a stripped weekend track car the night before, but I was able to get the car back in stock form working till 5AM. Three hours later they came to pick up the keys and the car from my house. Away I watched a defining piece of my life drive away. No, not the car, but the quality and motivation that came along with the Acura TL. My first quasi-luxury car, or entry luxury sedan, as classified by established magazine had come into my life unexpectedly opening many more than the 4-doors on the TL. By giving me a chance to start my own business, I was able to mature through experience and relationships that are invaluable. From starting a business, creating new products, developing marketing strategies, and organizing events; this has been a life changing experience. I want to thank you Acura TL, my parents and sister for giving me this opportunity, and the support from my friends and community. Not to mention my girlfriend, who came at the later part of the business, thank you babe.

With the TL gone, I thought a Honda Ridgeline would be a good substitute that would aid in the new activities such as biking, work, and a step away from the performance world. That lasted about a month. The Ridgeline was an incredible car, but I just could not get away from driving a more rewarding car, so I traded it in for a 2003 M3. It's a huge step up for me, as this is the first car I am financing myself, and it's also a lot more car than I'm used to.

The economies down turn has affected everyone, including my family and I, but I need to re-discover my spark. I don't know why I've been feeling numb about productivity lately, nor why I feel that I'm a bit confused about my direction in life. I've always had solid plans about where I want to take my business to, my goals for the day, month, and year. The past few months have not been like this. I'm having second doubts about if I want to continue the business and if I should start a new venture. I'm not sure if school is the right direction for me nor if I should be looking to move out soon. Should I be taking on a more serious project, or pursue my current venture? Is a job a solution for me? Is there a more serious issue that I'm overlooking?

I hope I have answers to these by the next month.