If I can just get my mind of her

I promised myself to stay away from this as much as possible since I don't want my blog to turn into an emotional confessional for all my "emo" moments. But I guess there are just moments in life when there is a need, there just is a need!

The sun is starting to show more now, and the cold, cloudy, Starbucks days are starting to become something to look forward to for next rainy season. I suppose I should be looking forward to summer and what it entails for me. The lounging at the beach, strolling down 3rd Street Promenade, bonfires, and of course endless summer night parties.

Unprecedentedly, my mind has been else where. I'm not a person to have any pet peeves and I don't put much thought to it when my dog barks unceasingly for hours. Having my car get dirty irritates me especially when I just washed it, but I get over. Forgetting my parking pass and driving to school, makes me feel kick myself. I don't think much about these things, but one thing I just can't seem to shake recently has been a girl I met. It's actually strange to think about putting this in writing because until now I've been trying to deny that my feelings for her were just in my head, and reading this on my computer has just forced me to accept it's real. I really don't know what to make out of this situation because I'm completely confused about how she feels about me, and I don't want to lose a good friend. It's also been keeping me up lately, even though I've been dead tired from finals in the morning, to evening classes at Santa Monica College.

Perhaps all this writing has helped me clear up some mental space so that I can finally get some sleep! But that doesn't really solve the insomniac issue now...

Long Island Ice Tea

I glance at the car clock as I leave my friend Theo's house. It reads 2:14AM on a Saturday night and my buzz is almost worn off from the three Long Island Ice Tea's I had about 2 hours earlier at The Cheesecake Factory. Although I should be looking forward to diving into the fluff bedsheets and sinking my head into that refreshing cool pillow, I decide to go for an aimless drive instead to enjoy the slight drizzle from the rain so I can listen to those oh so perfect late night aimless drive songs.

So I finally get home at 3:00AM, I realize that I'm not one bit tired. Sitting here alone in my room, only to be accompanied by the occasional rain drizzle, which seemed to have tired out as well, I realize that this occasional habit of insomnia is becoming quiet a frequent dependency. I guess I find it a good way to wind down and just collect my thoughts for the day.

Shit, it's 4:15AM...I better get some sleep before the bright sun rays start diffusing through my blinds.


Insomnia is a sleeping disorder characterized by persistent difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep despite the opportunity.